fractions

june 19th, 2025

dearest divas,

it’s been a second…my apologies i have been all over the place.

to be completely honest with you guys, i just haven’t felt like my jolly old self lately, which is super frustrated because i thoroughly enjoy being my jolly self. coming on here just felt really inauthentic and that’s kind of the antithesis of this whole platform… this year has just been a lot for me. in the wise words of kylie jenner, “this is the year of realizing things.” (Jenner circa 2016). i am realizing lots and lots of things lol and just haven’t felt like myself. like i was (well am) emotional as fuck. i think it might be my birth control who knows. i legit feel like i’m going through puberty again. anyways i think i figured it all out not fully back to jolly ol’ aves but i am DEF out of the woods (hooray). it’s such an interesting time to have this song that i wrote when i was deep in the trenches coming out right when i am exiting the trenches… this song reallllly captures it all lol. i guess it will serve as a little time capsule of my turbulent early twenties era…

i wrote this bad boy alone in my room (surprise surprise) and i was like woah that’s dark but kinda fire? then was like fuck am i ok???? especially verse 2… but to answer my own question i don’t think i am ok BUT i know how to fix it and i am on the road to fixing it and being absolutely amazing and unstoppable in the near future!!! this song taught me that i tend to be a tad avoidant with my emotions and deflect, deflect, deflect everything cus i really never want to bring down the vibes. somewhere along the way i adopted this narrative that people don’t have time to worry about me so i worked tirelessly to never be someone anyone has to worry about. i now know that that’s ridiculous and only hurts me! the truth is i am a very deep, emotional, and multifaceted young lady and don’t have the bandwidth to hold it all in and hide this side of myself. life isn’t all rainbows and butterflies and dealing with life alone and holding it all in is pointless. i have super kind and supportive people around me (not to mention the sweetest fans ever) yet i still felt like i was burdening everyone with my feelings. (words literally weren’t forming).

it’s all still a work in progress but i just wanted to thank you all enough for making me feel comfortable to release this one. i hope you guys listen back when life inevitably gets hard and know that i have felt these feelings too and that there’s an entire fanbase of divas who love and care about you (me included). dayum people say fan and artist relationships are parasocial but i think it’s me who is parasocial with you guys… anyways this year sucked ass and you guys really were the only thing keeping me going. you guys always dm me some saying i “saved you” but the truth is you guys saved me. ok crying now in this coffee shop like the emotional person i am and plan on being…i love you guys a lot.

yours 47ever and ever,

aves

PS: here’s a playlist of the songs that embody the great crash out of 2025 PLS add your ultimate crash out songs in case any divas are crashing out and need a playlist for divas by divas.